Halloween 2010

The girls were so excited about school today.  They were allowed to wear their costumes.  Lacey is a pink cheetah.  Shelby is a Roaring 20's Flapper.

Here's some pictures of our pumpkin carving night!!

Feeling Better

I feeling a little better today. My husband and I went to the hospital yesterday. We spoke with the doctor about all the meds they want to give our son. He explained each drug and what it does. Our son, Koty is on 4 different meds.  The doctor reassured us that the meds are safe and seem to be working.  After talking to the doctor we talked with the therapist.  Koty wants to come home.  We think it's because of upcoming events like Halloween and his birthday.  Koty seemed more alert and aware.  He looked good.  He spoke with a little more confidence.  I want to have good feelings about this but past memories make me have my guard up.  How will he be when he gets home?  Did all this make him realize what he's doing?

Uneasy

Yesterday was a horrible day for me.  The hospital staff kept calling me for this or for that.  The doctor wants to put Koty on this medicine or that medicine.  It was so pressuring and I just had a meltdown at about 4 pm.  All I could do was cry.  I was sad, mad, worried, scared and hurt all at one time.  But then while the girls and I were at the store Koty called.  He said he was ready to come home and that he really wanted to work hard at home and at school to be a better person.  I was so relieved that he actually said he wanted to come home.  This is a first.  Now today I'm a little anxious about the family meeting we have today at 2 with the doctor and the therapist.  What will they say?  Will they be able to answer all our questions about the medicine? 
I'm asking myself-How will he be when we get home? 

Hmm

Koty's still in Cedar Springs. He is on crisis which means he was found with cuts on his body. They are closely monitoring him. This was after a family therapy session where he told me "I haven't had the need to cut in almost a week". Turned out to be a lie. I'm so tired and frustrated with him right now. I just want to scream.